...it happened..again...

And so...Stuff happened to me again today..awal awal pagi buta dh ku cry..hehe..buruk ler.. but then my workmate kta tym ku cry,"eh E,u've been cryin dari tadi but i noticed that ur eye make-up nda faded aaa..im impress!" hahaha..tym2 ku cry jua lah ya cakap catu..but then what's funny is, aku ne melayan ea tah jua..i said,"owh..u noe why my eye make-up na faded eventho i cried a thousand rivers,its because i didn't put moisturiser around my eye-area.."hehe..but really..jgn put moisturisers ard ur eye area..ur eye-liner or eyeshadows won't last long..it last longer w/o it. =)

But..i still feel sad tho..so i was listening to my MP3s..daaaym~ semua lagi sad2..hehe..bru ku realize. I was listening to HIM,Breaking Benjamin,Avenged Sevenfold,Alterbridge, Seether, underOATH..sigh..sedih2 lagunya aaa..hehehe..But today,i don't really layan banar my SEDIH feeling coz no matter how much i cried..things are still gonna be the same..same old same all..
"Doing the most hurtful thing,sometimes, is the best thing to do"

I can't be with em but i can't leave em.so much pain in just so little time.. do you call 3 YEARS "little time" sigh..

You see, people tend to see mostly the negativity about the other when it comes to having arguments or what-so-ever. Funny ey..people usually remembers the bad things first than the good things about somethin or someone..Really! Like,"oh Si anu atu! eh bising tu ya atu~ yadayadayada...........------ but o.k plang ya atu" its mostl like that,people tend to tell negative side dulu and then hujung2 nya baru tah yg bagus..hehe..hairan manusia ne~

WEll,I wanted to say,"I want things to get better."but i Can't,bcoz im not sure if i want things back.i wanna say,"I regret being with him at the first place."i Can't too..bcoz,i wa shappy being with him all those times..even tho there are some things which i never want to mention ever again coz it feels soooo bad even after the breaking up.. and i also wanna say,"heh..im o.k..im cool with everything!"these wud be a lie~after all that i've been thru,im never gonna be o.k...

Easy for others to say,"Move on!""banyak lagi lelaki lain!" and all that shyt,but what happened between me and him,is soooooooooooo much like a drama..hehe..seriously!From Day 1 till "THE BREAK UP" and till now still even long after the break up! Sigh. There's a blessing in disguise..i know~ =)

But anyways,i wanna say thanks to my DEAR FRIENDS..MY LOVING COUSINS..My PARENTS and other PARENTS...for being there for me..helping me go thru these..my THICK and THIN..although not much words have been said from you all,but for just holding me,listening to me makes me feel better and stronger.. Thank You All..You are the love of my life~ =)

Help me go through these ones..and i know there are more to come..some people can't live to see me being happy..i don't know why..But thanks anyway.."TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO 'TALKS' ABOUT ME..THANKS FOR MAKING ME THE CENTRE OF ATTENTION"