...N o t h i ng...

Ku cinta kau
Tapi kau tlah ada yang memiliki
Ku tak bisa
Tinggalkanmu ataupun bersamamu

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God gave me patience
Patience to breath
God give me reasons
To not cry anymore about anything

God give me time
Time to think this through
God give me something
Something to keep my mind
Off missing you

Cause I cry lot
I cry out of fear
And it'd be nice if
You was all that made up these tears
But its years and years
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You weren't suppose to bleed with me
Sometimes these things just happen
Before you take it way too far
You gotta know that this will never happen

Confessions
They're so dull
They'll only kill you one by one
So just go
Cause you know
I'll do it again and again

I'll take what's mine and walk away
And with a face like yours
you don't need a heart
So go ahead say what you wanna say
Cause I'll close my fist and this will never happen

My Body and soul was chosen.
How am i supposed to get out with this one??
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.. L O S T...

Hi <--Ross' Tone,
Woke up lifelessly today..i had a bad feeling about today..as if sumthin was about to happen...sumthin bad~..got up lifelessly but still holding on to my strength and got ready and off to work..

At the office, was trying sooo hard to get my mind of things..as sooo many things had happened to me..a lot~ I might not look like im in trouble or depression or what-so-ever-down-sad kinda feeling..coz i always keep eveerything to myself unless i feel so damn STUFFED then i have to let it out to someone. I tried sooo hard to concentrate on doin my paper work today.And as i opened my e-mail,there!i did my first mistake, i Forgot to sent out an "invitation letter" to BLNG.but good thing the expected date of arrival is not until next week.so i still have time.when that happened,i got a feeling that more are comin...more bad things were gonna hpnd to me today..

And again,I was right..I was told about sumthin about that someone from THE somebody~ This time,i coudnt hide it anymore..tears were fallin..head spinnin..i guess,i wasn't ready to hear what i was told..i thought i was..i guess im still not strong enough..Been thru this quite awhile..but im still not used to this feelings..Sigh..I can't work like this..Im just so..CRUSHED. Every tears,Laughters..everything..just flashes back..right in front of my eyes..even right now..

There is no way i can explain what ever is happening to me right now and all of these years.
This suffocates me.I hate being like this.I hate this feeling.I want ME back..

...eenie miinniee miney mo...

Here are the nominess :-

This is PEUGEOT 307CC. This is the only "baby" left here in Brunei. Last piece~Its $800+ per month. i WANT it!



Pros:

• i'll be soooo damn lucky if i got this car coz its the LAST piece!
• 307!! my birth date..3rd July..ehem..hehe
• LOOK AT THIS BABY!! ITs lawa!!!! Suuuwwweeeeeeet!!!

Cons:

• Pretty pricey~~ (haha..staie! its not pretty pricey,its VERY pricey!!kan menyaman kan ati saja)

• most of my cuzzies are BIG..so i cant angkut them all at once! hehe..cian~~

This,right here is Ssang Yong Kyron. I don't see much people drive this car..yet... That's why including this one in my list. =)

Pros:

• Its an SUV. its Big!!Can fit my cuzzies plang ne.Well,may just 6 of them.hehe. And the trunk is soooo spacious!Which i really like. so that i can stuff my woofers and speakers and shopping bags in there! =) oh yea!!
• Its abt $500+ per month.Affordable..so..yea..o.k la tu~~ =)
• Its also lawaaaa...hehehe (uh..dya think if i painted it in PINK it will be more lawa??hehe)

Cons:

• The size is pretty much like Rexton or Tucson..which these two costs lesser than KYRON.Might just buy either Tucson or Rexton.But then,i dun lyk Rexton / Tucson. Too common~ heheh..*b!tch slap!* haha
• My mom doesnt like this car.She said its too big for me. i think NOT. I love big Rides!=) ehem!

and..Lastly~ MAZDA6...the newbie!About $500+ per month.

Pros:

• been in luv with mazda since..long tym ago..since GRAN TURISMO - PlayStation.Just Playstation not PS1 or PS2..hehe.lama jua udah tu!Asal RACE ja,MAZDA..haha
• Its not too big,not too small.Just nice for me~
  
• Its MAZDA

Cons:

• The price is almost the same as KYRON
• Its space is..u noe~~well, i cant think of the cons right now..but my mom doesnt like this one as much. sigh..how aaa....

So..there you go...help me~ huhuhu =( my mom really want me to get that PEUGEOT 207or is it 206..hmm..not sure la..but the new Peugeot 308 is hot too!but i still like BABY 307cc hehehe.

...Wheels..Bdaay and Handball...

Last Saturday, i didnt go to work due to my health..was pretty sick~..(aaawh~~ hehe). Terjangkit my parents..i thought my anti-body is strong..rupanya tidak~ I shud have known..i dun take vitamins..i dun take meds..i dun like goin to the hospital unless i reeeeeeeli cannot handle it..which means,unless i have a blackout!hehe. SERIOUSLY!

Well, aaaanyways, Besidees me havin that flu n yang sewaktu dgnnya, i went to BSB in the afternoon with my parents. All three of us were Flu-y, but still went to BSB! We went for Car Shopping!hehe.Well, actually more like ShowRoom-Shopping. We were surveying cars for me!!! Despite all of the sniffing,coughing yg melatop! and drowsiness..i actually had fun!! =)
The cars that i have in mind are Peugeot 307CC, Ssang Yong Kyron and Mazda 6.
My mom wanted me to have Peugeot 306 or 206..but nah~~ not really my taste. My dad picked Kyron for me! Well, i actually like it too! and so i came up with the three nominees which i have mentioned earlier! =)
i'll put up the pics later! Lawaaaa,..but kinda in a dillemma!! sigh~ konpius aka~ dunno which one to pick.Enough abt that..krg lagi continue aaa..

On Sunday.. my cousin's birthday! Celebrated at OGDC. Lotsa picture takings!! I LIKEEEE!! As usual, im almost in every frame!some might find it a lil bit annoying to me me in every frame..maybe not the "whole" me..might just be the hujung of my nose..hehe..my "witch-y" nose~ u noe wat i mean~ hehe and then went to Nenek's house after that,for the "Unwrapping" ceremony!hehe Buka hadiah wa! and then picture taking session again~ =) and then chill skajap and then, We decided to main handball!! 6 of my cousins, my dad. my mom,my uncle and my aunty were all playing..fun!!! Lotsa falling and sweats~~haha euuugh~ the guys were playing BAJU-less.It happended to be one of their strategy! They know us gurls GELi dorang punya sweats atu so kami nda berani menggasak dorang banar2..So,as expected..We gurls,LOST! Daym~~I went home with an injured toe!-I'm Seeking For Revenge!!- Muahaha~~!!!

Well, Tired saya bercerita eh..owh..want those pics???CARS??tunggu aa

...That day..at the beach...

....the golden Sun...















...the calming blue sky...

...the Heart...

...Something...

Here i am,sitting in front of my PC,at the office,not knowing what to do~ sigh.its not that i don't have anything to do - in fact i have tonnes of work that has to be done!I just don't know how to start!OMG! Stress saya eh.why? Its because, i'm Demam so feeling abit mengusut~ and i'm alone in the office (hate being alone ~ esp when im feeling demam-ish).

I dunno why,but today is pretty gloomy..the weather..the people..everything. Im soooo tired. Yesterday, Went to work - as usual, went out for lunch at Ideal,with my friend, Shilla, went back to office (got back to office late! kes mengumpat!yatah tu nah..keakhiran tah plang!) and then went home at 5ish.Got home took my shower and then went to OGDC. We got this preview thingy for our coming up performance on the 3rd of May, BOGA function and went back ard 9ish~ and when i got home i took my shower g..very the laju ku mandi and then to the land of nod! waaa...now bila i story2 aa,terasa tia tired nya atu.hehe.Had a pretty long day yea..

So that's about it..and what happen today..nuthin much actually.just the usual.Asked pictures of the dancers from one of the dancers,K.T, i wanna put up pictures of us..lots of them...even the funny ones..of fugly ones..hehe..so swing by my blog yea..u might be able to see pictures of Th' Fushion Dance Troop on stage,backstage and off camera! hehe. ayte!

Chao people! Gotta get back to work!mati ku krg oleh Boss ku! hehe

B L O G

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